What I am Doing and What's On my Mind

 

I’m on a deadline right now. Not really, but I have gone and promised to write on each platform I write on, following a specific schedule of articles. Here on my author’s website, I am on a Tuesday and Thursday schedule. Generally, I don’t have a problem thinking up something to write about, but this morning, it’s a little different. I’ve got some things on my mind.

The one most in my face right now is that I don’t feel the best. I had a rough night sleeping last night. I’m not sure why. I know I wasn’t comfortable. Not like there was anything absolutely wrong, I just wasn’t comfortable. I’ve been having trouble sleeping anyway, but with the naps I generally take in the afternoon, it all evens out. Besides, isn’t that something a retired person can look forward to? Naps.

I remember kidding with my boss once when I had been asked to return to work after I’d quit after working three years to be a writer, if I could have a nap in the afternoon. He’d said no. I actually wasn’t kidding. I ended up working for another 18 years or so. In those days, after I returned to my job, I found the time to write either late at night or super early in the morning. Thus, I really needed naps in the mid-afternoon. But sacrifices had to be made. I mean, we were talking about a steady paycheck.

The only other big thing on my mind right now is preparing our financial information for our accountant to use in preparing our taxes. I hate the job, but it has fallen to me to do it. Dennis brings the money home. I do the bookkeeping. The thing is, I don’t mind doing other people’s bookkeeping. I just don’t like doing our own.

I know if I just start doing it, I’m going to get it done. Month by month. There are only 12 months, right? Right.

None of this has anything to do with writing other than the fact that not doing it is holding me back from doing the thing I love most, which is writing.

Also, I felt the need to whine a little bit.

However, whining about it won't get anything done. It might relieve me temporarily, but your image of me as a competent writer might take a bit of adjusting. I mean, whining doesn’t look good on anybody but a four-year-old kid, right? And I’m 70. Old enough to know better.

You know, when I think of the authors I like to read, I never picture them as having any weaknesses. In my mind, I picture them as always in charge, turning and churning out book after book. Satisfying their reader’s need to continue the stories they make of the characters who come to life on the page.

What shows up in print is the best of the best of what they’ve written. I know now just how much a person writes that doesn’t see the light of day. For instance, these articles I write, I would never in a thousand years expect to see in book form. They are my inner thoughts. Sometimes, censored, though not so much recently. Much of what I write here and on my other sites and platforms is puzzling things out. I find it fascinating to follow a sequence of thoughts, much as you’d follow a plot line in a book, from the question or the fear to a better conclusion.

Maybe it is because I am a Virgo and enjoy the tiny details. I wonder what other authors are Virgos?

Shoot. Google told me Stephen King, Agatha Christie, Mary Shelly (Frankenstein), Goethe, O. Henry, H.G. Wells, and George R.R. Martin. These are all writers I’ve known, both through what my husband reads and my own reading. Attention to detail. There were a whole lot more, but these names are the ones that caught my eye.

Then, I got sidetracked into what the characteristics of a Virgo writer are. Lots of material there. You might look up your own sign and see how the life of writing might fit in. With Virgo’s? Perfectionism, attention to detail, precision, and a need to edit while still writing, and get stuck with the never-ending editing. I hadn’t thought about that one, but it is true for me. Presently, I’ve got five books that haven’t been finished because there is just so much to say. Perhaps I just need a shut-off switch.

So, that’s what's up for me right now. Leave a comment if you’d like about the kind of writing you like to do, if you are a writer. Personally, I think if you can tell a story, you are a writer.

Blessings to everyone. Write on!

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🌺 Pauline Evanosky

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