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To set the story for you about how I’m feeling right now.
First of all, my health is fine. I had a scare with some low blood sugar
readings, which is being solved now. So, that is being addressed.
Have you ever been so wound up with concern and worry that
you have unconsciously braced yourself for impact without really knowing that’s
what you’ve been doing? I think that might have happened with me, just now.
It’s Saturday, and like any other day, my tasks are to write two articles today. I spread these around for this website, TalkingtoSpirit.com,
my legacy website that’s been around since 2001, and my two writing platforms
on Medium.com and Substack.com. I try to write in advance for future publication, which is nice. That way, I’m not faced with any “Do It TODAY
deadlines”. I try.
During February and March of this year, I didn’t get a great deal of writing done because I was first worrying and then deep in the mire of financial sorting as I prepared our paperwork for our tax lady.
Even though it appears we didn’t make any money last year,
we did not want. If this continues, well, we’ll see what life is like. For now?
It’s fine. I’m accustomed to being poor. In fact, I don’t think I’ve ever been
much more than that. Why worry now?
The other thing was my blood sugar scare. I have not been
able to sleep well for a very long time. I didn’t know why other than I am an
older woman. I thought that was supposed to happen. I can remember my
mother-in-law telling me she couldn’t sleep, and that’s what happens when you
get old. Accompanying the sleeplessness were night sweats, sometimes brain
fog, and sometimes dizziness, even to the point where I ricocheted off the walls
as I made my way from our bedroom to the bathroom. Also, unsettling dreams. Altogether,
I relied on naps in the afternoon to help when I got tired during the day. As I
said, all this has been going on for a long time.
There was something else going on. It was the weather. We
had a week of hot weather. It was in the 90s F, which would put it around 32°C.
For years, the heat has bothered me. I swell up. My feet, my ankles, and my
fingers. I also feel miserable. I was attributing my current round of being
uncomfortable at night to this. It also always takes me a few days of cooler
weather to get back to normal.
What happened a couple of weeks ago was that I woke in the wee
hours. I think it was 2 or 3 am. I didn’t stay tossing and turning in bed but got
up. I figured I might as well get something done rather than lying in my bed
unable to go back to sleep. I could always have a nap the next day. However, I
was slow. I was so slow that I noticed it. I mean,
though, who wouldn’t be slow at 3 am? I took a blood sugar reading. It was low.
It was 53. Now, that’s not too low, but, yes, it is low. A few days later, it
was 44. Now, for me, that’s low. I had been told that when it hits 40, you’ll
be in the hospital. So, yes, 44 was scary. This was at 5 am. I went into the
kitchen. Time to eat.
I had a banana with sugar and milk. I tested again at 5:25
am, and my blood sugar had risen to 53. I went back to bed, and some three hours later, my blood sugar had risen to 120.
The progression with a low blood sugar episode is to either shovel a couple of teaspoons of sugar in your mouth, have some glucose tablets (I couldn't find mine), or suck on some Life Savers (I wonder if that's why they are called that?). You test ten minutes later. If you are not yet up to 70, then you repeat step one. Test again ten minutes later. If you are up to 70, you need to have something with both carbohydrates and protein in it for a sustained higher blood sugar. Cheese and crackers or a ham sandwich does the trick.
Then, it happened the next day. That was the day I awakened
at 3 am. My blood sugar was 37. I couldn’t believe it. I fumbled my diabetes
monitor and couldn’t get it to come back on again. I fumbled the strips that go
into the monitor. This is me on a blood sugar low. Fumbling, fuzzy, just not
with the program. I’m thinking to myself that by rights, I should be dead at
37. I was able to calm down and took another sample of my blood (just a drop) for another test, and ten minutes after being 37, it rose to 44. I had not eaten
a thing. What was going on? Was my monitor broken? I went into the kitchen and
ate something. Twenty-five minutes later, at 3:45 am, my blood sugar had risen to 64. I went back to bed, and when I got up at 7:20 am, I tested at 150. So, things
were fine.
This is when I began putting the pieces together, and since Google is my friend, I went there first. There is something called nocturnal
hypoglycemia, generally between the hours of 2 am and 4 am. That is when I
thought to myself, “Could this have been happening to me for all this time?” I’m
talking years.
I contacted my doctor the next day. She wants bloodwork and
labs done, which I’ll do in a week or so. I stopped one of my nighttime
medicines on her advice yesterday, and you know what? I didn’t wake up at all
last night. I slept easily through the entire night. Could you say I am
relieved? Yes. I am. As the results from my labs reach her, there will be a
discussion about altering some of my medicines, but I am relieved.
Could this, coupled with the relief of having done our part
in our taxes, be contributing to my off mood this morning? I think so. It’s the
only thing I can think of.
So, what do I do about it? Sit here and watch cartoons (that
would be a movie or stuff on YouTube).
No. I want a solution. Who better to experiment on than
yourself? As a writer, I need to stay in touch with my own feelings, at least
that’s what I’ve always thought. As a psychic, I also need to stay in touch with
myself. Why? Well, to be the best writer and the best psychic I can be.
So, what is the solution? Wait it out? Eventually, I will
feel better?
No, I want something quicker than that. What the solution is going to
be, I just don’t know. Waving a magic wand around would be nice, but I don’t
have a magic wand. I could have another cup of coffee, I suppose. Maybe, if I
were to just go out on my patio to enjoy the morning air and sun, and maybe
read my current book (space
adventure – Craig A. Falconer – The Earthburst Saga). Yes, I think that’s
the ticket. Which brings me to another book. I haven’t read it in a long time, Focusing
by Eugene Gendlin. My body just sighed. My body just gave a little. That’s
what focusing does. You ask yourself what’s wrong. You have this silly little
conversation with yourself about what’s wrong. Then, you go relax. I mean, you
could lie down on your bed if you wanted to. You drift a little and let your
body tell you what’s wrong. How do you know it’s the right thing? Your body just
relaxes. Read the book, and you’ll figure it out.
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